Sunday, July 25, 2010

Standing alone...

"Stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone."

I 'liked' this on Facebook this afternoon, but the reality of it didn't occur to me until a little later on.

I have felt quite alone in my thoughts of late, and although I have plenty of like-minded friends, it has been a lonely twelve months for me. It's hard to talk about my experiences with those who don't really understand them, and harder still to share them with others who have no concept of spirituality, let alone the feminine mysteries! Lucky for me I have a large and varied circle of friends, and of course, the most wonderful husband!

Standing alone has been tough, but at the same time, it has been liberating. I knew there was something wonderful waiting for me, but I didn't know that it would create so much initial turmoil! The biggest lesson for me so far has been acceptance. You read alot about how important it is to be happy with the person you are, but in reality it can be a difficult thing to achieve. Superficially it sounds easy, but true acceptance comes from really digging deep down inside and confronting everything you ever thought you knew about yourself. Again, easier said than done. Most of my lessons have come when I have least expected them. They hit me upside the head and rattled every pre-conceived notion I had of who I was. They made me stand alone.

But I no longer feel ostracised. I no longer feel angry that my choices and thoughts have separated me from all that I have ever known. Now I feel complete. I wholly accept myself, both physically and emotionally. I'm happy to be different, and I don't give two razoos what anyone else thinks!!!

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